I initially doubted the sincerity of the tears shed by one of Philippines' finest starlets in the name of Katrina Halili when I first saw her on TV reacting to the scandalous video people from all walks of life saw on the multimedia facilities like the TV, video and the internet containing her and that of Dr. Hayden Kho's visually filled sexual activities that took place in the room of the latter. This I had the feeling until I saw the actual footages of the concerned videos. It was too much, tremendous and definitely Katrina had the utmost reason to feel that way and to even go beyond shedding tears. (My apologies...)
Pardon my jumping on to the bandwagon and bruhahaha. I just felt I needed to write some of my thoughts in this blog regarding this much publicized scandal. I have some opinions which supported some of the others who witnessed the frames shown while I also have some peculiar ideas other people might cause to raise their brows and frown before me. But nonetheless, let me take the courage to go through it and express my thoughts without meaning any prejudices to those who might have a direct or indirect concern regarding this matter minus the fact about my stature in the society where I belong to date.
Frankly speaking, as soon as Senator Bong Revilla broke to the entire nation the existence of a video showing lewdity of two Filipino celebrities in his privilege speech made in the House of Senate and which was broadcasted on different television channels across the country that breached through the psyche of international media, i thought that it is just Bong's way of catching the people's attention since election weather has already started. I also thought that it is just like any other video scandals of pinoy celebrities that flourished in the underground market of video pirates which will just die down and eventually become part of history within just a week or two.
I was all wrong.
Soon, I have realized that this controversy is not like any other previous similar video discs. Names of prominent people were started to be blurted out in interviews. More senators, congressmen and even government officials became noticeably concerned. They made their comments and shared their views regarding the case. The NBI, PDEA and the OMB became deeply involved. Names of rich people like Dr. Vicky Belo were mentioned. Subpoenas were issued. Tests were conducted. PressCons were held. Throwing of sub-issues was done. All of these contributed to the magnification of the entire hulabaloo. At this time, I found myself engrossed.
Instantaneously, TV news included a regular segment of this case. Simultaneously, I became too curious. I started to surf the net; ask friends about their opinions. I became too engrossed to knowing the latest buzz about this whole thing. I would rush home just so I would catch the news on TV.
I also noticed that people from anywhere and everywhere of every part and kind of the society made this as an excellent topic for conversation -- while strolling, sipping coffee in the cafeteria, while bystanding, smoking, during drinking sprees, and even in the jitneys, tricycles, buses, vans among other opportunistic venue.
Questions that can be audibly heard include: what have you seen? Where can you find a copy? What time will be the broadcast? What is the website? Who said so? How did one react to such allegation of another? Is it really them? Who is to blame? Drugs involved? These were just few of the so many questions that people started to ask persistently. Everyone was waiting for the next scene to transpire; for the next interviews to take place; etcetera etcetera.
On my own, I did my part of inquiring hoping i would be satiated, satisfied with what I will find; hoping I would find information which I could also use to exchange information when I am with my friends or colleagues while we talk about it -- my part of grandstanding.
But what really shocked me was something I never thought I found -- not from Hayden or Katrina or Maricar; not from them but from me.
Let me make myself clear though. I understand and I agree that such act to video tape one's sexual escapades with another fellow without the consent of both parties is abhorable, insane, illegal and a direct breach and invasion of one's right to privacy. Disgusting! It can even be unforgivable specially in the case of Katrina whose career is at stake and also her future. The video was a manifestation of Mr. Kho's lack of respect to Katrina and to the women. And I am not yet even counting the act of leaking these videos to the pirates. I am only at this time referring to the act of videotaping the very private act.
But, as I finished watching the videos from a colleagues' mp4 mobile player, I realized how disturbingly manipulative Mr. Kho can really be. He knew his assets. He knew how to use these assets to his advantage. All the women on the videos that he has been with seemed to just abided by the gestures of commands made by him. He was a sex god on the video and all the women seemed like his robots -- sex slaves. I never thought that someone as good and decent as he looks could do something like that. Indeed, a person should never be judged by others though his looks.
The very vivid sexual acts done were like those that can only be seen on pornographic materials. How outrageously envying I thought to myself. Admittedly and with a twist of seeming shame, a part of me is shouting "I want to be like him." It was simply fascinating; unbelievable to comprehend that somehow he became my sexual idol -- someone I now look up to due to the bedroom abilities he has shown on those video. But only to this point. I have to admit that I am disturbed with such preposterous adulation. Well, I am just being hauntedly honest. I am just like those others who had the chance to watch these videos and later on found themselves admiring Dr. Kho for such a splendid (sorry for the term) manipulative performance on the bed with his women. Imagine, he has gone to bed with some of the most beautiful women in the Philippines! But then again, only on this point of the matter.
Anyway, I just hope all of these things will be finally laid to rest and those who really sinned shall be punished. May the victims be absolved by the society and be given the chance to redeem their dignity and lost glory. Also, may the embarrassment gone through by the victims become a learning experience for all of us so that at least something good will come out from this very ugly part of showbiz history and that similar occurrences can never happen again.
May God have mercy on all of us sinners...
-=freed dragonfly=-
