Fatherhood

I have to tell you that fatherhood has never been a part of my immediate plans. This is because of reasons other people find absurd but, to me, they are really why i am not just into it yet. I have to admit that fatherhood is a scary concept. It makes me have goosebumps and fearful and I just could not figure out how i can convince myself to overturn my belief.

The thought of having a sick child hits me bullseye. The thought of waiting for my child to come home late at night makes me frightened. The thought of my child being impregnated and ran away from makes me even more scared. The thought of not being able to provide my kids good education, good shelter, the right food, and those that they may need and want as they grow older are things which make me really stay away from this concept -- fatherhood. But I have to admit also that I think of being a father to my kids from time to time. But, as I try to wander in amazement at this concept, it suddenly gets bucked up by those scary parts of it.

But, come and behold, on November 13, one of my girlfriends told me that she is one month pregnant and I will become a father on July 18, 2010. At the first instance, I did not know what to say or think or react. It was just too much for me to comprehend. Besides, it was at the most unexpected time. I was broken to me while I was watching a movie in Gaisano-Legazpi. But i also have to admit that the first sensation that came was excitement then there came fear which I later on found to be considerable, bearable, controllable. It was like, what the heck! Here it is happening. It was a gift -- a beautiful gift that I have to accept wholeheartedly and bravely from God.

and So I did.