Jealous -- SeriouslY

During a long weekend a week ago, I was browsing my old facebook messenger messages when I came across this one person who I was really close with five, six, seven years ago but I seemed, for one reason or another, to have forgotten him.

I can not imagine this happened to our friendship -- not even a text to and from each other in those five years. We used to be so close -- a true picture of bromance. But, when I flew here to Canada and he graduated from college, things changed between the two of us. Too busy to even text? I am not sure. Maybe, but I think I can not use this as a reason.

Anyway, with that avalanche of thoughts from the past, I decided to send him a message. "Hi, how has life been bro?"

He was not online. A day or two passed by and nothing. Then one morning as I was getting ready to go to work, I heard my messenger's sound. It was from his account, but I immediately realized it was his common-law girlfriend who responded.

To my surprise, she knew who I was. She said her husband told her so many beautiful things about me; how close he was to me not too long ago; I good I was as a friend to him; how he idolized me. These painted a smile on my face, inevitably, but the last line shocked me. I read "He told me all of these stuff about you that he almost made me feel jealous." I said "What?????"

I truly did not know what to say or react in general. I was stunned by what she told me. I took me about a couple of minutes before I finally settled back in. Then I typed, "seriously? hahaha"

Then she said, "yeah, seriously." I was about to start writing my response when I saw the notification from the messenger saying "typing". I was like "uh oh what is she gonna tell me." Then ting. It read "My husband never described another guy friend of his this much and talked about this so passionately. He held you with highest regards and, imagine this, idolized you. To him, you are that special."

I told her I did not know that this was how I impacted to her husband. I told her that her husband is one of the closest friends I ever had.

As I was already in a hurry to go to work, I decided to ask her to say Hi t her husband from me -- to my long lost close friend. She said she will tell him that. I also tried asking for his cellphone number but the next thing I knew, she logged off.

I left an offline message in another day. When I checked for the response the other day, there was nothing. But for sure, the status was "seen".

For some reasons, this made me feel uneasy. I wonder what he said about me that made her feel that way. I could not imagine a wife feeling jealous at me. Anyway, I left it at that and I did not bother to send a message anymore as it led me to one thing: my friend does not access his facebook account or its messenger anymore because it is his wife that does that.

Then I realized, what could have I done wrong because this is not the first time that a wife or a girlfriend told me "I am jealous of you".

And honestly, I have no clue and I do not feel good about it.

Just Writing

I was watching TV on his dull Sunday afternoon when it just hit me -- whatever happened to my mto3.blogspot.com blog? Oh yeah, it has been like forever since I opened that page.

I reached for my laptop and decided to open my blog. All right, my last post was on 2014-07-14 -- it has been almost a year indeed. How time flies indeed when I am busy, all too preoccupied by a lot of things usually about work and family.

I started reading some of my blogs and it is ironic to know that I sometimes get puzzled about the subject of the blog. There are times when I could hardly remember what I wrote in here. It made me pause to think several times. It was like an opportunity to force me to look back and check on what happened not too long ago which enticed me to write something about it.

I would look out of the window, at the ceiling or even at anything my eyes would be involuntarily directed by my in-depth thought. Some of them I was so sure that was I was exactly talking about. In other times, I have doubts they might be it.

Hmmm, I wonder.. But anyway, one thing that I really like about what happened this afternoon is that I got the chance to look back through my writings and reminisce those stuff I have almost forgotten -- not because they no longer matter, but for the simple reason that something more essential has came along.