EMOtional...

While I was browsing a friend's profile especially the pictures in one of his albums there, I suddenly came across a particular title of this picture saying "EMOtional... Parot!". This picture title suddenly hit me. It was like a thunderous flow of blood that rushed through me. I felt I quivered. I controllably trembled somehow.

I thought, hey, was the title for real? Was it really depicting the emotion he had on that picture? Does he really hate his being allegedly EMOtional sometimes just like that moment which was captured in the picture? Or was he just trying to create a facade of his real emotion?

It kept me really thinking especially that I thought my friend, my dear friend, is one honest person; one sincere person; one person who respects others more so himself. A person I admire because i thought he is soft-spoken, studious, diligent, persevering among other good character traits which he manifested when we were together.

But, hey! wait, do i need to accommodate some sort of personal reservation now? Had i misjudged him before like he was this too-good-to-be-true person? Or am i judging him wrongly now? I suddenly got confused. I really don't know. To me, it was just one topic which encouraged -- if not inevitably forced -- me into deep and thorough thinking.

Or, to give him the benefit of the doubt, it might be just his way of trying to impress the readers err viewers of his F.s. You know -- trying to be a cool guy. But, he is already a cool, nice guy kasi I will not choose him to be one of my "seemingly" close friends if he is not nice. Or, you know, was he just trying to project that "not the typical boy next door" image which seems to be, if I will base my judgment with my sisters' opinions, the type of guy of most girls. But, he is that boy-next-door type of guy kaya nga girls in school even from the elementary level up to the college level would try to get his cellphone number.. including those of the third sex. So, why change that? A lot of his male school friends envy his profile. So, again, why change that neat, school boy image into that image I got based from that picture title.

Anyway, I hate to admit to myself now but it seems i am evolving to be a reluctant friend now. And I just wish, I am wrong with my feelings; that he did not put that title -- somebody else did; that he is indeed that guy with a big dream who would do his best to achieve it with the help of his family and friends, not at the expense of any of them; that he is the good guy.

I just hope he is the same person I have known him to be kasi nanghihinayang lang talaga ako ng sobra. And besides, okay lang naman na sometimes a guy or a boy becomes EMOtional. Such state does not make us a lesser man. Even real men do cry, you know! Sana, if he considers being EhMO as being girly or feminine, it would be changed kasi he is making himself susceptible to mental whatevers at, of course, di na sya nyan completely TAO.

Sa ngayon, sana na lang na just in case you read this my dear friend, ma get mo ang point ko at hindi mo ako ma misunderstand. I only mean well for you. Nothing else. Ok? Padaba ta baga ikaw kasi I consider you my friend. I care for all my friends. Aram mo man yan. Ok? Specially that you are still young..

Cge po. God bless you always. Senxa na kung naging topic pa kita sa blog ko. hehehe Ayoko na kasing mangyari uli yung delayed reaction ko sa isa sa mga studyante ko nun tas it ended in a traumatic note sa akin. Basta, I only mean well.. Take care always.