Love, like, infatuation, endearment.. whatever you call it, to me, it is just a feeling that i can choose to ignore or have myself engulfed. Frankly, i chose to be swallowed by it (and as I always had). As expected, things were doing well at the start.
I did not know this dragonfly ever existed until the time it landed on me. I saw it, looked at it and connected to it. I would test if the dragonfly would voluntarily approach (text) me, it just did. To my hearts' content of course. It was an awesome feeling to venture savoring the sensation that tingles my veins coming from my heart.
The site of my eyes on the dragonfly is
so beautifully experienced and imprinted in my memory. As I looked at it, it was like i wanted to get all the details of how it looks -- the face especially, its alluring face so seductive that I could just breathe deeply and try to smell it. Ahh, how wonderful is the feeling.
It's seldom-used voice sounds like a melancholic song for me. It was a sound I could clearly remember especially in the stillness of the night in my room where it is dark. Again, this point makes me just inhale so deeply prompting me to imagine its smell.
Every place we have been seemed like paradise. Every second of my conversation with the dragonfly had been recorded in my brain. Ahh, how beautiful is my feeling of the dragonfly... The promises of it took me and blew me. The dragonfly was so captivating. It knew how to seduce me, to lure me, to attract me, to make me connected to it regardless of the distance -- to make me think about it all the time.. to imagine it...
But alas, the dragonfly all of a sudden disappeared. It stopped the rotation of my world. It crushed me. It pre-occupied me. All I could ever think of was the dragonfly. All about the dragonfly. Nothing but the dragonfly. It was a torture. Not letting me see this creature is like experiencing thousands and millions of arrows piercing through my heart, my brain, my all. I kept thinking what had gone wrong. Until now, I could get the answer. All I can remember was that my last moments with it were so sweet, so good, so touching, so wonderful.
I cried. I cried. I cried endlessly. I thought, where did the dragonfly go. What wrong have I done to deserve this kind of treatment from this dragonfly who colored my world; who provided melody to all the sounds that i can hear; who gave me the passion to look forward to the next spot where it would touch me... It has started to kill me.
Now, the same dragonfly who gave meaning to my life just gave me the reason to reverse all the things i have enjoyed. The dragonfly was just teasing me as it learned about my vulnerability. But nonetheless, i still thank, though painfully and remorsefully, this dragonfly, for dropping by my life. And I am looking forward to being with you again even if I shall wait a lifetime which I hope would not be that long.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, if you only know, MY DEAREST DRAGONFLY....
Aduy! Hay buhay!
PS: I will write on this blog my first ever encounter with the BEE..
I did not know this dragonfly ever existed until the time it landed on me. I saw it, looked at it and connected to it. I would test if the dragonfly would voluntarily approach (text) me, it just did. To my hearts' content of course. It was an awesome feeling to venture savoring the sensation that tingles my veins coming from my heart.
The site of my eyes on the dragonfly is
so beautifully experienced and imprinted in my memory. As I looked at it, it was like i wanted to get all the details of how it looks -- the face especially, its alluring face so seductive that I could just breathe deeply and try to smell it. Ahh, how wonderful is the feeling.It's seldom-used voice sounds like a melancholic song for me. It was a sound I could clearly remember especially in the stillness of the night in my room where it is dark. Again, this point makes me just inhale so deeply prompting me to imagine its smell.
Every place we have been seemed like paradise. Every second of my conversation with the dragonfly had been recorded in my brain. Ahh, how beautiful is my feeling of the dragonfly... The promises of it took me and blew me. The dragonfly was so captivating. It knew how to seduce me, to lure me, to attract me, to make me connected to it regardless of the distance -- to make me think about it all the time.. to imagine it...
But alas, the dragonfly all of a sudden disappeared. It stopped the rotation of my world. It crushed me. It pre-occupied me. All I could ever think of was the dragonfly. All about the dragonfly. Nothing but the dragonfly. It was a torture. Not letting me see this creature is like experiencing thousands and millions of arrows piercing through my heart, my brain, my all. I kept thinking what had gone wrong. Until now, I could get the answer. All I can remember was that my last moments with it were so sweet, so good, so touching, so wonderful.
I cried. I cried. I cried endlessly. I thought, where did the dragonfly go. What wrong have I done to deserve this kind of treatment from this dragonfly who colored my world; who provided melody to all the sounds that i can hear; who gave me the passion to look forward to the next spot where it would touch me... It has started to kill me.
Now, the same dragonfly who gave meaning to my life just gave me the reason to reverse all the things i have enjoyed. The dragonfly was just teasing me as it learned about my vulnerability. But nonetheless, i still thank, though painfully and remorsefully, this dragonfly, for dropping by my life. And I am looking forward to being with you again even if I shall wait a lifetime which I hope would not be that long.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, if you only know, MY DEAREST DRAGONFLY....
Aduy! Hay buhay!
PS: I will write on this blog my first ever encounter with the BEE..
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